1 00:00:01,160 --> 00:00:02,560 - I WOULD CLOSE MY EYES, 2 00:00:02,560 --> 00:00:04,900 AND I WOULD STILL HEAR EVERYTHING AROUND, 3 00:00:04,900 --> 00:00:10,030 BUT I WAS ABLE TO JUST HEAR IT BUT YET NOT PROCESS IT, 4 00:00:10,030 --> 00:00:11,200 SO TO SPEAK. 5 00:00:11,200 --> 00:00:14,900 I WAS ABLE TO FEEL TINGLING, YOU KNOW, IN MY TOES 6 00:00:14,900 --> 00:00:16,230 AND THEN UP THROUGH MY LEGS 7 00:00:16,230 --> 00:00:18,560 AND THEN ALL THE WAY, LIKE, THROUGH MY FINGERTIPS, 8 00:00:18,560 --> 00:00:21,200 THROUGH MY HANDS, YOU KNOW, ALL THE WAY UP TO MY HEAD, 9 00:00:21,200 --> 00:00:25,200 AND IT WAS EXHILARATING. 10 00:00:25,200 --> 00:00:29,030 I DON'T KNOW, I KIND OF LIKE TO, YOU KNOW, 11 00:00:29,030 --> 00:00:30,860 RELATE IT TO, I DON'T KNOW, 12 00:00:30,860 --> 00:00:32,200 LIKE, A DRUG. 13 00:00:32,200 --> 00:00:35,160 IT'S LIKE A NATURAL DRUG WITHIN YOURSELF, YOU KNOW, 14 00:00:35,160 --> 00:00:39,130 TO HELP YOU GET THROUGH THINGS, YOU KNOW, 15 00:00:39,130 --> 00:00:40,860 HELP YOU FACE THE WORLD, YOU KNOW, 16 00:00:40,860 --> 00:00:43,460 TO BE ABLE TO DEAL WITH NORMAL EVERYDAY STRESS 17 00:00:43,460 --> 00:00:45,530 INSTEAD OF HIDING AWAY FROM IT. 18 00:00:50,000 --> 00:00:53,500 AND, LIKE, THE PART WHERE, YOU KNOW, 19 00:00:53,500 --> 00:00:55,360 YOUR MIND JUST CREATES 20 00:00:55,360 --> 00:00:58,400 JUST, LIKE, YOU KNOW, A BEAUTIFUL SIGHT 21 00:00:58,400 --> 00:01:04,260 WHERE YOU PUT YOURSELF AT, IT'S JUST LIKE NOTHING AROUND. 22 00:01:04,260 --> 00:01:08,360 I WAS ABLE TO FIND THAT PEACE WITHIN MYSELF. 23 00:01:08,360 --> 00:01:14,300 - TO EXPERIENCE A CALM, 24 00:01:14,300 --> 00:01:15,930 A PEACE. 25 00:01:19,100 --> 00:01:23,160 MY BREATHING, IT WAS AMAZING. 26 00:01:23,160 --> 00:01:26,130 THE CORRELATION BETWEEN OUR MINDS 27 00:01:26,130 --> 00:01:27,960 AND OUR BODIES. 28 00:01:27,960 --> 00:01:31,360 IT WAS JUST AMAZING. 29 00:01:31,360 --> 00:01:34,800 IT'S HARD TO REALLY EVEN DESCRIBE 30 00:01:34,800 --> 00:01:39,560 THE PEACE, THE RELAXATION, THE CLARITY THAT I HAD. 31 00:01:39,560 --> 00:01:42,060 - WELL, IT'S JUST, WHAT THIS EXERCISE DOES 32 00:01:42,060 --> 00:01:44,830 IS IT ALLOWS YOU TO FOCUS ON SOMETHING ELSE. 33 00:01:44,830 --> 00:01:49,630 YOU KNOW, IT TAKES YOU TO, LIKE, YOUR HAPPY SPOT OR SOMETHING, 34 00:01:49,630 --> 00:01:52,360 YOU KNOW, TAKE YOUR MIND OFF 35 00:01:52,360 --> 00:01:54,660 WHAT YOU'RE DEALING WITH, YOU KNOW? 36 00:01:54,660 --> 00:01:56,300 - IF YOU WOULD HAVE ASKED ME 5 YEARS AGO, 37 00:01:56,300 --> 00:01:58,260 I WOULD HAVE TOLD YOU TO GO "F" YOURSELF, 38 00:01:58,260 --> 00:01:59,630 BECAUSE I'M NOT GOING TO TRY IT, YOU KNOW, 39 00:01:59,630 --> 00:02:01,060 BECAUSE I'D THINK THAT'S, LIKE, ALL HIPPIE STUFF, 40 00:02:01,060 --> 00:02:05,100 BUT I WAS A DOUBTER, TOO, AND I DOUBTED ALL THAT, 41 00:02:05,100 --> 00:02:10,930 AND FINALLY, YOU KNOW, IT WAS JUST A LAST-DITCH EFFORT, 42 00:02:10,930 --> 00:02:16,060 AND, FORTUNATELY, IT'S BEEN REALLY HELPING ME OUT. 43 00:02:16,060 --> 00:02:19,630 YOU KNOW, I'M MORE ACTIVE, I'M MORE SOCIAL, 44 00:02:19,630 --> 00:02:21,860 I GO AND TALK TO PEOPLE, 45 00:02:21,860 --> 00:02:24,560 AND ESPECIALLY WITH THOSE OF US, YOU KNOW, THAT I MEET, 46 00:02:24,560 --> 00:02:26,600 LIKE, ON THE STREET OR AT SCHOOL, YOU KNOW, 47 00:02:26,600 --> 00:02:27,860 I ASK THEM, "HEY, YOU KNOW, 48 00:02:27,860 --> 00:02:31,460 "HAVE YOU BEEN EXPERIENCING ANY KIND OF, LIKE, ISSUES, 49 00:02:31,460 --> 00:02:34,200 ANY KIND OF PROBLEMS?" ALL OF THEM SAY NO. 50 00:02:34,200 --> 00:02:35,530 WE ALL DO, 51 00:02:35,530 --> 00:02:40,400 BECAUSE WE ALL DON'T WANT TO HAVE THAT KIND OF TITLE, 52 00:02:40,400 --> 00:02:42,930 YOU KNOW, OF SOMEBODY WITH PTSD, 53 00:02:42,930 --> 00:02:46,000 BECAUSE, YOU KNOW, THE GENERAL PUBLIC, CIVILIANS, 54 00:02:46,000 --> 00:02:47,430 PEOPLE THAT NEVER SERVED, 55 00:02:47,430 --> 00:02:49,800 THEY LOOK AT US LIKE, YOU KNOW, WE'RE INFECTIOUS 56 00:02:49,800 --> 00:02:51,660 OR LIKE WE'RE GOING TO KILL THEM, 57 00:02:51,660 --> 00:02:55,960 WHICH I THINK IT'S [BEEP]. 58 00:02:55,960 --> 00:03:00,700 BUT, YOU KNOW, I STILL FACE THOSE PROBLEMS EVERY DAY, 59 00:03:00,700 --> 00:03:03,430 BUT IT DOESN'T BOTHER ME LIKE IT USED TO YOU. 60 00:03:03,430 --> 00:03:05,830 YOU KNOW, LIKE WHEN I FIRST STARTED, YOU KNOW, 61 00:03:05,830 --> 00:03:07,630 BECAUSE, LIKE, THROUGH TREATMENTS, YOU KNOW, 62 00:03:07,630 --> 00:03:10,430 THERE IS A LOT OF TRIALS AND ERRORS, 63 00:03:10,430 --> 00:03:12,400 BUT, YOU KNOW, I JUST HAD TO REALIZE 64 00:03:12,400 --> 00:03:14,600 THAT DEALING WITH PTSD IS SOMETHING 65 00:03:14,600 --> 00:03:17,130 THAT I HAVE TO DEAL WITH. 66 00:03:17,130 --> 00:03:19,430 I JUST CAN'T SHY AWAY FROM IT, YOU KNOW? 67 00:03:19,430 --> 00:03:22,500 SO I USE THESE DIFFERENT TECHNIQUES, 68 00:03:22,500 --> 00:03:26,430 YOU KNOW, AND, SAY, BE ABLE TO PUT MYSELF IN A WAY 69 00:03:26,430 --> 00:03:29,260 TO ACTUALLY DEAL WITH SOCIETY.